With Eyes Closed
Last night as I lay in bed at 3am struggling to sleep, I thought about my dog and her impending season and the operation she will need early next year. She is a nervous Cane Corso pup so she is also strong and protective. Basically the potential to be a bag or nerves and teeth! Who should take her I thought, and out came the crystal ball! I looked at what might happen if me or my husband took her, I saw the various images of what might happen and as the emotions came up I realised what I was doing so I said to myself 'stopped that'!
As I tried to sleep again my mind floated to the past and recalled my girl that I had to take to the vet for her exit from this world some 4 years ago. I began running the memory and the painful feelings arrived and right on cue the tears rolled down my face.
What am I doing I asked myself! Stop woman! 'right now you are in a room where nothing is happening and you are crying whilst desperately wanting sleep'!
Whilst holding the strongest part of that memory in my mind and with eyes still closed I did the kinaesthetic pattern on myself. The tears stopped and almost immediately the memory faded and the emotions subsided. This morning I tested several times, trying to get the memory back, even though I know what happened the image is no longer vivid in my memory and the feelings related to that event have gone.
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